Resolution...kinda

So the meeting went better than I expected, after a little beating around the bush we finally got down to the nitty gritty.  He eventually said, "well I'm glad we've talked everything through." I didn't want to walk out of the conversation feeling like I didn't have a voice so I continued and brought up multiple issues that I have seen.  It was interesting to realize he didn't understand many of the issues.  This I'm sure is complicated to read, you'd need to back story but like I said, this just isn't the place.

Last night I couldn't fall asleep and God constantly brought me back to that verse.  The few lines that stuck out most were "Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again, Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all."  Knowing I was going into a converstation with a lot of conflict gentleness was definately needed.  I am not gentle, my name actually means strong and mighty...this whole gentleness thing is something I'm not good at.  Over and over I kept repeating those verses.  The entire passage has spoken to me on many occasions, it is an incredible thing to see God's word and truth be relevant in so many areas.

Also, as I was praying through things last night God showed me that much of this is spiritual warfare.  I don't show up to work because I want a paycheck, I do it because I wholly believe this is where I am called to be, this is my mission field. I have been loving it and seeing God work so faithfully and intricately and part of this was the devil invading that.  I also began to realize that I work in a fallen world, I am and work with fallen people, it won't be perfect and can't be perfect.  It doesn't make it any easier but it's helpful to be reminded that this isn't how it was intended to be.

I left today feeling better about where I am at but also realizing that this is part of working at this school.  There are adjustments I will have to make in myself, like gentleness :) in order to make this work.  I want nothing more than to bring glory to God in this school, It's scary to say it but I'll do what it takes