And Then Everything Changed

In the middle of this mess Chris left for Rwanda, he was only leaving for 17 days but I cried at even the mention of him leaving.  He is my rock, he hold me when I'm hurting, speaks truth into a dark situation and is there to comfort me always.  I didn't knwo how to do it without him.  We went to community dinners with our close friends and then said goodbye.  I can't remember the last time I cried that hard. On the way home I was listening to a Christian radio station and numerous songs came on about God coming to our rescue.  Nicole C. Mullin's song "When I call on Jesus" came on and I almost pulled over I was crying so hard

When I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles' and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call


I needed just that, I needed Jesus to radically intervene and save me from the mess of lies, manipulation and fear that was strangling me.  I woke up the next morning and began reading through Psalms.  It's amazing how deeply the words spoke to me, it was as if they written specifically for me.

Psalms 5 says
Listen to my words, LORD,
   consider my lament.
² Hear my cry for help,
   my King and my God,
   for to you I pray.
 ³ In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice;
   in the morning I lay my requests before you
   and wait expectantly.
⁴ For you are not a God who is pleased with wickedness;
   with you, evil people are not welcome.
⁵ The arrogant cannot stand
   in your presence.
You hate all who do wrong;
 ⁶ you destroy those who tell lies.
The bloodthirsty and deceitful
   you, LORD, detest.
⁷ But I, by your great love,
   can come into your house;
in reverence I bow down
   toward your holy temple.
 ⁸ Lead me, LORD, in your righteousness
   because of my enemies—
   make your way straight before me.
⁹ Not a word from their mouth can be trusted;
   their heart is filled with malice.
Their throat is an open grave;
   with their tongues they tell lies.
¹⁰ Declare them guilty, O God!
   Let their intrigues be their downfall.
Banish them for their many sins,
   for they have rebelled against you.
¹¹ But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
   let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
   that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
 ¹² Surely, LORD, you bless the righteous;
   you surround them with your favor as with a shield.


And Psalm 7
Arise, LORD, in your anger;
   rise up against the rage of my enemies.
   Awake, my God; decree justice.
⁷ Let the assembled peoples gather around you,
   while you sit enthroned over them on high.
 ⁸ Let the LORD judge the peoples.
Vindicate me, LORD, according to my righteousness,
   according to my integrity, O Most High.
⁹ Bring to an end the violence of the wicked
   and make the righteous secure—
you, the righteous God
   who probes minds and hearts.

I hadn't  ever prayed for my adversary to be punished or destroyed until I read those words.  God hates all who do wrong, he hates oppressors, he hates liars, those who are deceitful and arrogant. So, the morning of October 17th I prayed that justice would come, that he would be found in his lies and his oppression of others.

When we pulled into school I immediately knew something was up when our director's car was there.  I knew she was just as much afraid of him and since she had quit, he was even more angry with her.  The teachers were called into an emergency meeting where we were told our principal, numerous of his family members, and another staff member were put on emergency leave pending multiple investigations.  It was such an amazing, immediate answer to prayer.  It was a real validation that God hears our prayers, knows our hearts and is saddened when people are oppressed.

I didn't realize it then but that was only the beginning of a very long saga which is still continuing on....more on that soon, but I'm tired, its 8:04, almost my bed time and I need sleep!